Life Changes
So on this change I sent out a personal e-mail to my family. I thought of sending one out to my friends but then I decided, if you don’t check my blog and I don’t see you often enough to tell you this change in person then when/if you find out will be the appropriate time, rather then giving this info out to everyone I keep loosely in touch with over e-mail. If you check my blog regularly, then you care enough about my life, or are noisy enough about my life to find out this information. I know there are plenty of people who care who do not check regularly, but for now all I’m able to deal with are those who do.
This will seems a little coarse of an intro to what I’m about to post, but I think I’m at that point in my day where I want to be coarse and not sappy.
The following is an e-mail I sent to my immediate family members today.
Dear Family,
Jon has recently made, though it has been a long process, a personal change. The following is a copy of a e-mail he sent to his family members. I on the other hand I will bluntly state that he no longer is participating or believes in the teachings of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I still love him deeply and he is still very much the same person he was before. It’s not like he’s flipped some switch and is completely different. He still loves me and the girls and we are staying together to figure this out.
The letter includes a link to his blog where he will try to help those around him understand and see how he came to this decision. He is not trying to persuade anyone to believe as he does. He just wants others to understand him a little more so that confusion, heartache or anger may be lessened by reading. He is not bitter towards the church and he is not leaving because of some sin. His beliefs have just been altered so much that he cannot pretend to believe. He still supports me with raising our girls in the church. He is not trying to persuade me to believe has he does.
Please bookmark the below link because it will be updated and a continuing development for a period of time, after a while it will be more of his own outlet on his new beliefs, but for now it will slowly tell his story of change.
For those who are finding out this information for the first time, I am sorry I did not tell you in person or over the phone. It’s just been chaotic and I feel a little drained from it all. The thought of telling one more person hurts me physically and just seems to open the wounds I have. Over all I am doing OK, but I am saddened by the loss of my eternal companion.
Love,
Lacey
Greetings All,
I am beginning to blog about some recent personal changes. I feel that
blogging is the most appropriate way to inform you of these changes. I
communicate much more clearly when I have the chance to search out
words to more accurately reflect my thoughts. Though this method is not
as personal a phone call, I think it will help us to end up with a
better understanding of each other when all is said and done.
I ask that you do not discuss this with Mom and Dad until I have a
chance to do it myself. I’m trying to decide how to tell them in a way
that will convey my deep love and respect for them and minimize the
heartache that will surely follow. Any suggestions you may have would
be most appreciated. I regret that they will have to adjust to these
changes at this time in their lives.
http://www.blakeclan.org/jon/greenoasis/
With my love,
Jonathan
I have had this knowledge since November 29, 2006.
I’ll elaborate more later this week. For now I am drained.
January 17th, 2007 at 11:18 pm
Wow. That is a heavy post. To be frank I’m quite shocked. I guess everyone probably is? I can’t imagine or pretend to know how you must be feeling- but know that I’m thinking and praying for you and your family.
January 18th, 2007 at 3:11 am
Alrighty then. I feel a certain sense of bewilderment and confusion. Yes, I’m being redundant again. I read Jon’s blog and could not comprehend the need for change, bur perhaps it is because I might look at the Church differently than some others. Now I can only guess how you must feel. And at this time, I don’t have any comforting words that I know will make a difference. However, I will still show Jon the same love and respect I’ve always shown him and you. Of course I hardly talk to anybody unless forced to anyways. ๐ May the Lord guide you through this event in your life and I’ll be thinkinf of you guys.
January 18th, 2007 at 1:09 pm
Just so we’re all on the same page. Jon’s blog will be a continuation of his conversion to what he now believes. It may be a little while before any clearer explanation is read.
January 18th, 2007 at 2:21 pm
Add me to the shocked and confused list. Of course I will always love and support both of you, but I do look forward to understanding this more fully.
Lacey, you are an amazing woman, and I believe that description includes being able to lose it if you want! You are being so strong, but if you want to break down and cry, I’ll still read about it. ๐
I love you guys so much, please know that we are praying for you. This will continue to be a challenge for all of us, but life goes on right? I have learned from MUCH experience that you can either live in the past with the “coulda’ woulda’ shoulda'”, or you can face the future and make the best of it.
Jon, you have always been like a big brother to me. I will always remember the respect and unconditional love I felt from you when I went through my own life changes. You were always there to listen and encourage me, and I’ll never forget that. I feel that this is my opportunity to return the favor. I don’t pretend to understand any of this, but I am open to listening.
Also, know that you guys have an open-invitation to our home, any time you just want to get away. We would be honored to have you here again. Lacey, I would especially have fun with an all-girls weekend! ๐ I love you, and am here if you need me.
Love, Shauntae