Is It Naptime Yet

So I turn 29 later this week.
Twenty-nine.

As I tried to be introspective on life, I decided I’d write a poem instead of some post about getting old. (Ha, I’m still writing a post on getting old. Fooled you!)

For some reason I felt that a haiku would be the best way to be reflective. I actually did some research to make sure it was more Haiku than not.
5-7-5 syllable lines:check.
Reference to a season: check.
Be vague: check (This one I made up.)

I decided I’m entering the Summer of my life. Sure my Spring might have technically been over 5 years ago, but I think each season is different for each person, and I’m hoping that I’m just leaving my Spring season. 🙂

So here I am. Nearly 29 with life ahead of me and 29 years lived. I have two children who are not babies anymore. One will soon be nine and her time living with us will begin counting down, instead of up. The other not fair behind.

Most of my peers are just beginning the family part of their life. They’re just getting married, or they’re just starting to have kids. I have a handful of friends who have older kids like mine, but I definitely have the oldest child and I’m fine with that. I’ve experienced a lot, but in other ways I’ve experienced so little.

It’s interesting as Jon and I plan for our future. He still worries about Parkinson’s or not being able to work, but I am just looking forward and wondering what shape our lives will take.
Where will we go over the coming years?
Where will we travel together?
What things do we want to accomplish as a family?
What will I do with myself as the girls get older?
Since I’m “just” a mother and a wife, I see a lot of possibilities for myself. I don’t have a career to tie me down, I can study and do what I like in the coming years and it’s OK if it changes and it’s OK if I stay just a mother and a wife. I know I might short change myself, but in some ways I see there is so much I can do, and much I can become. I hope I’m able to help my girls see their possibilities. I love watching them grow. There are growing pains, but it’s interesting to see who they are becoming.

I’m so thankful to have a wonderful husband who loves me and allows me to be me, with all my weaknesses, I always feel support and love. I know there will be trials in the years ahead, and I hope we can work through them together, as we already have.

I am really enjoying this time in my life, except the getting older part.
I still think I’m only 23.

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