Is It Naptime Yet

Here are pictures of the wedding. These are just some of what we took. Jon was behind the camera most of the time, so that’s why he isn’t in many.
Here we are waiting….This is Kaitlyn running around. (above- for some reason it isn’t letting me type up there.)
Here are some of the kids running around. These are Brien’s Bro- in -laws and nieces and nephews.
This is Rob- Brien’s best man (He even named his first born after Brien), then Uncle Leonard and Aunt Glenna (my mom’s sister), Cidnee (Brien’s sister), Rob’s wife in the white top, and a brother in law to Brien.
The Bride and Groom leaving the temple. He is wearing his crown of laurels.

When I saw Brien on Sunday he was so sweet because he said “Wasn’t she so beautiful? I was crying right before she got to the temple and then I saw her enter the room and I just thought how beautiful she was.”
He was also crying during the whole sealing.

continue on the next posting…(they only let you put so many pictures up per post)

These are pictures Jon took while we were getting ready for the photographer at the temple. They’re the inside of what was going on.
This side is Brien’s family…so I don’t know any of their names
This is our side, so on the top starting from the left you have, Joy (Andrea’s ex-roommate), Zarina (she introduced Andrea and Brien), Uncle Mike, Mary (She’s due in May), My Aunt Robin, then Carolyn (sister), and Christa, (Andrea’s friend from when we lived on Nellis AFB, so anywhere from 15-20 years ago they met, you’d have to ask them). Bottom row is Howard (Bro-in-law, married to Kristi sister), Uncle Leonard, Aunt Glenna and my dad.
Now lets jump to the reception…here’s them cutting the cake.

I think Brien smashed it in her face first, then Andrea retaliated.

Andrea got cake in Brien’s eyes
I was talking when this picture was taken, but they were on their way out, so Andrea was in a rush
Them with our girls

There was a condom on the tail pipe, so when they started the car it inflated.

we’re waiting for the bride and groom

they see their car


happy family at the end of the day!

Oh how time flies when you’re cleaning. I thought I had time to breath so I cleaned on Tuesday and Wednesday…I should have done more studying…but I’ll do that today and tomorrow. I have a lot to do and so little time.

Monday I was able to finish my skirt, get the button holes on Lilah’s dress and the flowers. Now only the buttons and hand sewing on Eden’s. I’m so excited for the wedding!
Today is my four year anniversary to be married to Jon. I can’t believe it’s been four years. Time flies when you’re in a good, happy relationship. We’re going to the Memphis Championship BBQ. It’s a restaurant Jon found on-line last night and is fairly close to where we live. We also want to go somewhere different, and I wanted meat. So hopefully it’s good.

More Eden news
One reason I have this blog is to note the little changes of my girls…
Sunday I noticed Eden’s first tooth!! Warning TMI coming– I don’t know if it’s just me knowing she has a tooth, or if it really is interfering when she nurses, but my nipples are sorer when she nurses. Lilah ‘s teeth never bothered me…except the two times she tried to bite me, but she responded to my warnings and didn’t do it after a couple of times…but Eden’s mouth is closed more when she nurses compared to Lilah’s, so I wonder if I get more pressure put on by her gums, now tooth, though hypothetically, the tongue should always be over the gums or teeth, but I don’t think Eden always does that.
She’s also started babbling mamamamma this week!! I know she doesn’t know what she’s saying, but it’s fun anyways.

Saturday was a good day. Jon and my dad went and got the large material’s Jon needs for his raise bed garden. He was going to build a frame and have it off the ground, but that would have taken a lot of time, so he is now doing a rectangular garden with cement wall blocks. (It’s late and for the life of me I can’t figure out what I really want to call them.) he also got wood to have upright so he can plant climbing type veggies, like zucchini, or something. anyways it’s a nice start to his garden. Monday he will be getting the plastic and other materials to lay down for the garden, so he can start building it this week. I want to pant the blocks, so they’re not just gray, but we’ll see if that happens anytime soon. We also went to target and bought way too much stuff. We got the shower curtain, rug and towels for the girls bathroom. It’s exciting to have the bathroom look presentable and have it be adult but young, (the young being the frog soap dispenser;) While at target a guy ran into our car door and bent it. He was not licensed, uninsured, and from Idaho. (Not that Idaho is bad, just that he was from out of state.) Since he wasn’t licenced, we probably should have called the cops, but I just hope our insurance bills them somehow for part of the damage. Jon was putting Lilah in the car seat and the door was open wide because of the wind and he was trying to park around it, but he hit it and bent it back. Luckily it’s just ugly, and not any frame damage.

Besides getting the bathroom and the bricks, I prepared my Relief Society Lesson. It went well today and I’m always amazed at the wonderful women in our ward and how they know just what to say. Today I think I wasn’t as prepared, since I only prepared Saturday, but it still went well. I love being a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am strengthened by it and the knowledge I gain by living the principles and following the plan the Lord has set out for me.
I’m to tired to be to reflective right now, but I want my children, if they ever read this, to know that I love the gospel, and I love living the gospel, and I hope they know this by example, rather then just words, as they grow and I teach them. I know that Heavenly Father loves them and he loves me as his daughter. I hope that they will grow in the gospel and not have some of the trials I had, but I hope that they stay strong and are able to pursue their dreams and goals, and that they include being worthy women, and glorious mothers.

Jon and I have come to turns that I am a night owl and he is an early bird. I think that’s the lingo for that term anyways. He really has no choice though, since he has to be out of the house by 7:30, so getting up early is just what he has to do. As he has gotten older he also just wakes up automatically around 6:00 am, so he’s usually tired by 10-10:30 pm. I on the other hand get to sleep in and stay up.I like to stay up late, I don’t know why, I just do. Maybe it goes back to staying up late with my older brother Scott and hanging out with him, or just to rebel, or watching the 11:00 news with my dad on some nights. We said our prayer together and then Jon went to bed. I stayed up and watched the men’s figure skating and then a little of Letterman. I was also reading during the breaks for my history class, so there was some productivity to the night.
I crawled in about a quarter after midnight. Which was good because last night Lilah woke up at 12:09 am and went to the bathroom. If I wasn’t there I can just imagine her hearing a soft moaning cry because of getting frustrated by not being able to get her pull-ups and pants on. Or our toilet overflowing because she used too much toilet paper. I’m a big helper to my child. She can go to the potty, but her little arms are quite long enough to reach the toilet paper and be able to have one hand on it to tear off just a few sheets. Plus its hard for her to wipe yet again because of short arms. So anyways I help her get back into bed and she got a special sticker for getting up on her own. Yesterday she stayed dry the whole day, and this morning she was dry!! So hopefully we’re on our way to fewer accidents. Though there haven’t been many with her.

I just finished my women’s test and I got a 92%! I guess having Lilah watch Annie and Iron Giant today so I could study pulled off, and staying home from my Psy. class. I can’t do that every test, but it helped with this one, and I hope that I can stay on top of my classes.

Eden news
Eden is now moving forward. She’s not crawling, but she pushes on her legs to thrust herself a half and inch to an inch forward, and she sometimes army crawls. She had a ball today pushing a block out or reach and then moving forward to get it and pushing it…..well it’s exciting to see her moving forward rather then just to the side. She’s also taking better naps. I just have to be patient and let her be really tired, compared to I’m tired, but I still want to stay up and watch what’s going on. More singing and patience is what I need, and I must remember that. Plus she also had a stuffed up nose, so I think it affected her because she couldn’t suck her thumb and breath at the same time.

Lilah stayed relatively dry today. She was put into time out and was crying when she said she had to go to the bathroom, which she has used before to try to get out, but she had just gone. This time she really had to go, and she went a little, but the rest got into the toilet. She does really well with the sicker method. We have three different sheets/ kinds of stickers. One for pee, one for poop and the third is the special stickers for when she keeps her pull ups dry from her nap, or night time, and when she tells us she has to go and makes it to the bathroom.

Valentines day was great. Jon brought home roses for us, a lavender one for mommy, and two white roses, one for each girl. It’s his second year doing this, so it’s his tradition for Valentine’s day. Hopefully we don’t have more then 12 girls 😉 I hope we don’t have more then six really… because that’s how many kids we want.
I also got a Valentine from my sister Andrea…Thank you…it was sweet that she thought of me (and probably other family members) while planning her wedding, especially since it is now just eleven days away. I think I’m getting over my sadness because my big sister will now have her own family to take care of, and won’t have time for mine…but I still have Carolyn…and I’m happy that she will share the same joy I have by being married. I just don’t want her to move to Ely, NV..Yuck, maybe they’ll move back before we move, if we ever move, from Vegas.

Well the first thing that ticks me off is I did a draft of a discussion posting for my on-line English class on Friday and I had a question on a word, or phrase for Jon, to make sure I wasn’t making it up, so I was going to wait until that evening to post, it was due on Friday by 11:55 pm. Then Sunday I was checking the post and I realized mine wasn’t posted!! So I had forgotten to go back and post the DP that I worked hard on. So poop on me. I posted it on Sunday, and made a note that I did so just to contribute and it was truly done on Friday. We’ll see if the professor gives me even partial credit, so right now I have 28 out of 40 pts. at least I think…she hasn’t given a grade for the first real post.

The pee on me was this morning. Lilah had been up watching Sesame street, and I was finally having her go to the bathroom. She was naked because we had just taken off her pj’s and her diaper for the night and as she was climbing onto the step stool to get to the toilet, but she fell and bump her head on the tub. I scooped her up, knowing that their would be some consequences and yep, she peed on me. I had to put her on the floor and get a towel, so then she was crying even more because she had peed on herself and bumped her head. It was fun.

This weekend we got a lot done. I was able to get a sassy new haircut, but now I need to buy a straighting iron. Jon got a toilet seat for the toilet in the guest bathroom and it cleaned up so Lilah can use it. The tub is still a work in progress, but a shower curtain will hide that. He also bought a rug for the living room. I was able to sew Lilah’s dress together. Now I need to get button holes put in and the button’s and flowers sewn on. My machine doesn’t do button holes, at least not easily seen of a way to do them, so I’ll need to go to my mom’s house for that. I also got a posting for History done. Now I just have to concentrate on studying for a test I have in my women’s crime class. Lots of reading to do, so lots of video watching for Lilah probably.

I wrote this at 11:45 today. It’s now 2:46 and I still have not gotten any studying done. But I have done dishes and a batch of green beans for Eden. Lilah has been an angel and I hope she goes down for her nap okay.

Yesterday was a bad day. I was in such an evil mood and Eden was so grumpy. I say evil because as a new mom, I mean that in the since that I have a young baby, you sometimes get bad thoughts in your head about hurting your child. Yesterday was one of those days. I was soo stressed out about all the work I have to do for my classes and was trying to catch up. (I’m about a week behind in History and two in my women in crime course. I have a discussion due Sunday night for History and I haven’t even gotten to the lectures or readings it’s on and a test on Tuesday for the women’s class and I am way behind in lectures and reading there. So I am stressed, plus I hadn’t done a posting for English and was needing to watch those lectures.) I’m drowning basically and yesterday I felt like I would die, or my child.
Eden has decided she doesn’t want to take naps and she has been hard to put down sometimes. Yesterday was the pinnacle because I was wanting to do so much, but she was so ornery and tired that she wasn’t going to sleep. She kept rolling over and playing so I’d put her back and she’d get upset. She knows when I put her on her tummy and give her her thumb she is suppose to sleep, so she wanted to be in any position but that and I was wanting to nail her to the bed so she would got to slept. Also I’m sure she can feel my anxiety, so it winds her up even more to be in my arms. You just feel like such a bad mom when you get the urge to harm your child. Even today I was ready to shake her to get her to calm down and sleep. It’s just been so depressing and hard for me lately. I feel that I don’t understand her and her needs, and at the same time I feel like she wilfully trying to make my life hell by not taking naps and being so grumpy, which I know is not true, but in the heat of the moment, you think anything. Jon reassures me that it’s normal to sometimes have those thoughts, especially under stress and that I will never act them out. But when those moments come I have a voice saying what if you can’t hold back, Jon’s wrong, you really do want to act those evil thoughts out. It’s just a vicious cycle on your mind. I am a little better today, I feel more in control of my school work, but Eden is still being a pain about taking a nap. I feel like I have zero patience some days, and I wonder what I would do if I got a really difficult baby, I fear for them. I am such a control freak when it comes to getting Eden to bed and keeping her happy. It’s like if I can’t keep her happy and she starts crying I get so frustrated that she isn’t responding to me. Today when she wasn’t going down for a nap, after trying for about twenty minutes, I shut the door and took my shower and let Lilah watch Clifford. I figured that way she could cry it out, I wouldn’t hear her while I was in the shower, but would still be accomplishing something that had to be done. (I hadn’t showered since Tuesday). I need to leave the room more often and let her figure it out. I guess it’s when I need her to sleep and Lilah is taking her nap already, or I’m putting them down at the same time, that I get really frustrated. I can’t let her cry it out because she’ll wake Lilah, but I don’t want her out of bed because she’ll be so needy and grumpy. Jon reminded me I have the playpen to put her in. Just now she went down really well. Sure it’s been an hour and a half since I tried to get Lilah into bed, (she’s using the potty as her excuse, so she’s gone into timeout twice for lying and she really has gone twice…it’s still annoying though) so They are both asleep, but it’s now 4:35 and I’ll have to get dinner ready soon, but I should watch a lecture….

I think I’ll stay home and let Jon go to his parents house on Sunday so I can do more work. I know it’s kinda breaking the sabbath, but I just don’t have enough time. Saturday I have a hair appointment and need to finish Lilah’s Dress. Once I get that done I will devote the rest to studying (maybe give Jon a haircut) and see if I need time on Sunday. Since now I know how crazy things will be I know I can manage my time better to do the work, it’s just been a hard lesson to learn this semester. Once the wedding is over I can also devote my Saturdays to more studying and real work around the house. Poor Jon does so much on those days and all I do is sew, go to baby showers or get my hair done. I have a great husband.

I do have enjoyable moments as a mom though. Like when Lilah wanted me to stay with her at bedtime, so she grabbed my shirt, I told her it wasn’t nice to grab mommy’s shirt, so she grabbed my arm and then she put her arms around my neck and gave me a great hug. Eden also has the happiest smile and she gets soo silly when she’s tired and you just have a ball keeping her up because she laughs at almost anything. Eden also has a great time laughing at Lilah when she’s being silly, or laughing. Like when I was tickling Lilah today Eden was laughing along with her sister. It’s great to be a mom, but there are definitely times it’s trying.