Is It Naptime Yet

After the girls went to bed the other night Jon decided to have the last piece of birthday cake. (It was a little dry so I was OK with him eating it.) Lilah came out and used the bathroom. I helped her and then gave Jon a vocal warning of “Here comes Lilah for her hug Daddy.” So he placed the cake on the table as to have it out of sight, but it was not enough to evade the Lilah senses. She gave Jon and hug and then asked for a cookie. We said we didn’t have any cookies, so she asked what Daddy was eating. We said he wasn’t eating anything. (I know it was a lie but you can’t tell a two year old we’re having cake without you.) So as I took her to the bedroom she asked “What I smell?” refereeing to Jon’s chocolate cake breath. We just laughed once she was down.
It’s amazing the sense of smell she has and that she connects the scent to certain foods. I had a piece of beef jerky as they were napping but she got up and when I put her down again she asked for beef jerky. If she smells something on my breath she’ll want to look into my mouth to see what I have.
This is just a warning. Children have a great sense of smell when it comes to treats. They also have a great ear. They hear the bag opening and they come running to see what you’re eating.

We enjoyed a family gathering with Jon’s family on Saturday. Jon and Lilah went swimming with everyone and I kept watch over Eden and talked with his parents. I was to bloated to go swimming. I titled this the woes of the red monster because I’m experiencing the red monster, other wise known as a period or menstrual cycle, (who knows what my posterity will call it.) It’s not fun because I’m getting one every week. Yes, every week for the past three weeks and it’s not lite little things. The first day is hardly anything, and then the next two days are heavy flow. I would have gone swimming had it not been so heavy. I feel that my sad days are linked to the period also. A day before it starts I am susceptible to instant sadness, well not instant, just a quick change of mood I suppose. Mostly it’s over being lonely. I was so distracted by school that I didn’t have time to do much of anything else. With being in school I also socialized with my other classmates, and I got enough people interaction. Now I feel like a complete loner. I hate having to make people come to me since I don’t have a car or a very large house, and I also realize how closed off I am to other people. I’m also sad because the one woman that I feel comfortable with is moving this Thursday to Dallas. It just makes me sad. We just get along really well and both talk a lot. She’s fun and I’ll miss that I wasn’t able to get together more often with her. I don’t make friends easily, I’m so connected to my family that I often don’t think about making friends, and now I feel trapped and alone. It’s also that so many of my friends or family live far away, so visits are limited. Kristi is going to try to have a weekly play date with me and bring over the kids, so I look forward to that. I also just feel a little isolated from the other women my age in my ward. I relate well enough to some but it’s hard to go out and spend time with them.
I’m just a little lonely I suppose plus the ranging hormones of nursing and frequent periods aren’t helping.
I just want to say it’s not everyday I fell this. Just one or two days a week. I don’ t dwell on it, I just become sad and sometimes cry when I think about it. I’m hoping that seeing new people and getting out with the girls will help.
I’m hoping that when we get the second car I’ll find a new freedom. I hope to go to the library and maybe some parks that have the water game, and I’ll need to invite another woman along.

So we decided we didn’t need to replace the linoleum. Thank goodness. Jon bought the toilet, he had to drive to a far away home improvement store because the one near us didn’t have the correct kind of toilet. When he bought the toilet the guy at the store said the tank we had would fit, but Jon was skeptical and for good reason. It’s didn’t fit. We had to return the tank to get a compact one that would go with a ten inch rough in toilet. We installed it and it appears to have a leak at the the seal where the valve goes into the toilet. Not the valve but the plug around it. Anyways now we need to return a second tank. Hopefully the third will work. With having one toilet Jon has appreciated having two, especially with a little girl who likes to spend forever on the toilet, when you get her to use it. So the hole in the floor is covered, but we don’t have two working toilets yet.
I admit I do like having new toilets. Their’s something nice knowing who has used them, it makes cleaning them a little less disgusting.