Disappointment

As far as I can tell we’re not getting callbacks to be in the play. I haven’t received any e-mail and tonight is callbacks. The Lee’s received a phone call on Sunday and though they plan on telling most through e-mail I figure they would have done that yesterday. I really wish they would send a ‘thanks for coming but you’re not in the play’ so I can have some closure. We were 65, 66, and 67 in the process so they had a lot of people this year. I don’t know how anyone could not want my girls to be in their play as munchkins, but I am partial.

I am also so disappointed, I’m sure more so than the girls will be when I tell them.

I really went out of my comfort zone to audition. I thought there might be a chance that we didn’t get in, but Judy kept saying they try to take everybody so I had hope that it would be true. I prepared the girls that we might not be in the play,¬† but I didn’t prepare myself. I feel like a young girls dream as been smashed, so I’m very sensitive and acting a little young and am very sad. I was up last night crying at the disappointment for about an hour. I really wanted this for Lilah and I really wanted to become a part of a wonderful community of people.

I might try to see if there are smaller things that Lilah can be in. She really wants to be in a play or on stage and I want to encourage her to get out there and do things.

There’s always next year for the girls. Maybe one year older and being less bashful will help them both, if they both want to audition again.

Note:

I just told Lilah. Her first reply was she must not have done good enough, and of course I comforted her and said she did wonderfully. She cried for a few seconds and was sad, but then her remark was, “Now we can have a party at the McKenna house?” The play would be intensely practicing around Lilah’s birthday and I had told her a party was not going to happen this year. We’ve done a pool party at the McKenna’s house the last two years, really Zurflueh, McKenna is the wife’s maiden name and the real estate team Carolyn works for. Carolyn house sits for the¬†Zurflueh‘s and they’re out of town each year around Lilah’s birthday and they’ve let us, along with Carolyn who has to help with the fiasco, have a party there for Lilah’s birthday. So I’m happy that she can look forward to a party, at least a small one, if it helps with the small disappointment of not being chosen.

3 Responses to “Disappointment”

  1. andrea Says:

    I think it’s easier for little kids to bounce back from these things. You probably feel more like a rejected contestant on American Idol. You had to decide if you could make the time commitment before you auditioned, so you were more committed to the idea. For the girls the commitment was an abstract concept. Maybe you all need to treat yourselves to a consolation ice cream cone. (There I go thinking food will solve the problem!)

  2. Carolyn Says:

    I would have picked your girls to be munchkins if it was my play. Their lost, my party gain.

  3. Amber Says:

    I’m sorry. But yay for parties!?