Yesterday

So Yesterday was the day I exposed myself to the world. Even though it was his choice I still worry about judgment in the years to come from those who do not understand or refuse to try. To be able to talk openly about it is a relief, but as we are exposed it can bring deeper hurt and opportunities for new judgment. Most people I know send love and support. I am grateful for that. In a way I worry about my own judgment and self doubt, not others. I hope to come out of this stronger. I hope to help my children choose a good path. I worry that I will be lost and then my own will also. I wish away my situation but it still lingers and longs to be dealt with. I know my husband says he loves me but I’ve never felt more alone as I do now.

I feel as though my inadequacies are being measured.
I feel as though I have to begin anew.
What I thought has been taken from me.
What I knew has been altered till unrecognizable.
I am naked before myself, yet all I see is nothingness.

One Response to “Yesterday”

  1. Jon Says:

    Yesterday
    all my trouble seemed so far away
    Now it looks as though they’re here to stay
    Oh I believe in yesterday

    Suddenly
    I’m not half the man I used to be
    there’s a shaddow hanging over me
    Oh yesterday came suddenly

    Why she had to go I don’t know
    she wouldn’t say
    I sad something wrong
    Now I long for yesterday

    Yesterday
    Love was such an easy game to play
    Now I need a place to hide away
    Oh I believe in yesterday

    🙁